而立- 韦礼安
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Water or the ocean?
Probably my stuborness and idealist 理想主义 part of me comes from my father. A lot of time, my father lives in the past, and I'm aware that I am too. I do not wish to be like him. He struggled to explain all the time and wish deliberately for things to go a different way. He never back down or give up, that's why it makes everything worst and sad. Although deep down I am a dreamer, I seldom speak it out loud and I accept the fact that it will never happen, even before I tried. Probably I am more afraid that my dream would never come true, so I'd rather not try. It is suffocating to see my father like this, I swear I don't want to be the second. So I stayed a distance to the place I wanted to be, I only dreamed quietly inside. I meditate, and wander off to the far places, high mountains and the midddle of the sea. I tell myself, I am watching the deep blue sea, and my heart is peaceful. I do not wish a lot to happen in my life, I only wish small pieces of bliss and happines...
